Spunky's Journal!!!!!

Spartaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

2007-04-09T21:25:52Z

They say that miracles only happen in the lies that adults tell children.....

I've a suggestion to keep you all occupied......

Learn to swim.

~Luv Spunky~

Cuz I am the mess you chose, the closet you cannot close...

2007-04-07T22:07:04Z

It's so good to see most everyone have most everything in their lives working out and it's even better to hear them express it all on LJ. It gives hope. You hear both the good times and the bad.

I Don't Believe....

2007-01-28T18:14:06Z

"Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanind. It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self. Therefore, trust the physician and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility." - Kahlil Gibran

You can't kill me... I'm Immortal.

2007-01-28T04:42:59Z

"You're only as strong as the tables u dance on- the drinks u mix- &the friends u love!"

*sigh*

...

wow.

~Luv Spunky~

The lies will never end will they?

Its the good times, that make you happy....

2007-01-27T08:32:58Z

I enjoy almost anything but the original song. Of any song. I love remixes. I love acoustic versions. I love cover versions. For the most part... To me, they are almost always better. Listening to my Adema cd's, I hardly like the song Freaking Out at all.... but the remix, to me, is fucking wonderful. "Cold" by Crossfade... The Acoustic version was better than the original, and the remix version was better than the acoustic. It's just how it works for me. Does anyone else feel me on this? Or am I the only one? Emerge by Fischerspooner. It was remixed well by Junkie XL. BT did some fat remixes too. Even DJ Sammy and the Ataris did some great covers and remixes of Boys of Summer by Don Henley.

I begin to question whether or not this weird quirk about remixes and covers has anything to do with my personality and whether or not it makes me different or special because of said fact....

\\I am really proud of myself for finally getting something off my chest that I've had there for a long time.

You know...

When I called her a whore.

Because she is.

What else do you call the girl that cheated on y0u several times?

Definitely not your wife.

Whore seems to work better.

...

So, I went and saw my family the other day.... I hate them all so much. But I suppose, recently, I'm trying to teach myself why I should love them...

They are my family. She is my mom. He is my dad. She is my sister. They a

All care about me. In one way or another. Even Neil. Even Denise. Even Joe. All married into my family and they all love me in some way or another. Hell.... Even Joe looks out for me. As much as I hate/love them... I don't know what I'd do without them....

I'm tired.

"Regardless, Every thorn..... has a rose at the end."

~Luv Spunky~

Close my eyes... let the whole thing pass me by...

2007-01-25T07:53:39Z

Tonight went pretty well. I didn't feel too well at work, as I haven't for the past few days. I've been feeling a little ill. Slightly flushed I suppose. Work seems to drag on forever when I feel ill and business is slow. It does give me some time to listen to music and think about things... although that's not always a good thing.

I definitely cooked burgers tonight. =) My burgers should be world famous. I should market and sell them for a hundred dollars a piece. We could all then proceed to wash them down with some wonderful Jagermeister.

"You always listen to those country songs where some stupid cowboy talks about a broken heart, but it's true. There's this sinking feeling in my chest. My heart... it's broken. It really does hurt."

Stan makes such a great Goth on South Park.

I pimped out my Buddha. I got him from the mall. He's so awesome. He's like 2 feet tall. I decked him out with some Jager gear. All of the ladies will be all over him.

I've been all about Adema lately. They're certainly moving up in the ranks of my favorite bands. Them and Trapt are amongst the top of my list. I had to re-purchase the Trapt cd for about the 5th time of my life. But, they are definitely worth it. Trapt is the stuff.

I need to get a tattoo.

Well. It's off to bed with me. Under the best blanket ever.

Goodnight folk.

~Luv Spunky~

Say what you want, say what you mean... question yourself are you really what you dream?

2007-01-23T21:17:15Z

As usual, I'm not sure what to say. I went to a bitchin party the other day and kinda outdrank my drinking buddy, Kilo, even if he did start hours earlier... I still won. I mixed up Doug-e-fresh a badass flaming dr.pepper. That took care of him for the night. =) There were Jagerbombs and whatnot all over the everywhere. I showed off my Massive Buddha statue a bit and hung out in my car. I've been stuck all over one of the latest cd's i got. Adema - Insomniac's dream. It's awesome, but makes me depressed as hell. We all need to come down a peg or two once in a while.

After the party, I rekindled my friendship with a select few. I talked to Brittney for the first time in a good while. And I've been hanging out with Tek's sister Crystal, which is always great. Even in the worst of situations... she helps me out. =) I am the only drama in her life right now, so she seems to be pretty interested in it.

Kilo and I traded punches at the party after we were pretty fucked up. It hurts like awesome now. It's all fucking purple and black and shit. It even looks like I have some cuts from it, but I question if that was someone else hitting me with a ring on. She hit Kilo too and he has some "cuts" on his arm like me, so either we really fucked each other up, or that ring did it. Regardless, it was awesome.

Well, I think I'm going to go begin to enjoy my day off.

Peace!

~Luv Spunky~

I Love my car.... So much.

2006-11-29T10:37:26Z

I've really been enjoying the weather lately. Every night, I get off of work or I ride around on a break and it's cool, yet humid and foggy. Tonight it was rather misty and very refreshing. I tried to help Billy do some work on his Mustang's system, but we failed. Every wire seems hooked up perfectly, but the subs still wouldn't hit...

I was compelled to ride tonight. The weather was just too great. Standing around working on a car, the mist falling on my face. The lights of the parking lot adding for ambience...

...

I can't wait until Chanukkah...

~Luv Spunky~

I love oldies...

2006-11-16T20:59:02Z

One Day, I Hope To Be A Prophet.

Or A Revolutionary.

That Is All.

~Luv Spunky~

Hello there.

2006-11-12T10:29:29Z

Soup is good for the soul.

~Luv Spunky~

It's not what you did, it's not what you didn't...

2006-05-27T18:39:56Z

A wedding and a rave in the same day? I'm so stressed... =)

Hopefully it will be some sort of relief. It would be a lot more relieving if i didn't have to work tomorrow....

My birthday went very well. Thank you to everyone who wished me happy birthday and all.

I haven't really gotten to see many people, but I'm proud of all my graduates. =) Maybe they can start coming to my parties now that they don't have school...

My body hurts....

I'm not really looking forward to this wedding or this rave. I hope they will work out better than I expect.

I'm also not looking forward to running my store next week while my boss is on vacation....

bleh.

X men 3 was good.

Maybe I should move to South Carolina for a while.

~Luv Spunky~

Coming out of my cage and I've been doing just fine...

2006-04-30T06:59:38Z

Fired someone tonight.

Makes me happy.

Teach him to tell me Fuck off...

My family and I are going to cook out for my birthday Tuesday.

A little late, but better than never.

Meg called. I got an early happy birthday from her.

Becca too.

But Meg's was funnier, cuz she was drunk.

=)

I'm going to sleep well tonight as it rains on the Fema trailer...

This is my december...

2006-04-29T04:55:57Z

I want to hear you sad......

Goodnight.

No one knows what it's like...

2006-04-27T06:30:02Z

Advent children rocked.

Today was a good day.

I am so working on that surprise for my own party.

I am also working on Street Fighter Alpha 3 for my PSP.

I <3 Street Fighter.

I can't wait until my birthday party...

Only...

It will be missing 2 things...

We're swerving off the road...

2006-04-25T18:16:10Z

I Miss My Friends.

And I Miss Donna.

It's Been Awhile Since I've Had A Day Off.

I Think The Bay Waffle House and Silent Hill Sounds Like A Good Day Off.

Hostel Was Good.

Resident Evil 4 Is Interesting.

And Now, I'm Hungry.

Also, I'm Going To Have Something Awesome For My Next Party.

Later.

~Luv Spunky~

It's not warm when she's away...

2006-04-24T17:23:06Z

I'm so worried about her....

I love her.

I'm considering a trip to South Carolina.

I just need to hear from her...

~Luv Spunky~

You are my sunshine... my only sunshine...

2006-04-24T00:09:11Z

I love hot showers with cold endings.

~Luv Spunky~

Say it ain't so, I will not go

2006-01-02T07:34:24Z

The new year is off to a great start. I spent my transitional period at the State Palace with many of my friends. It was great to see Dreamraver and Phoenix. Then again, when isn't it great to see them? Kazpir was stoked to see us. The feeling was mutual. I got to see Demas! He introduced me to his friend Billie, who is pretty cool. He claims to be Mini-Matt, but I don't see it. Besides, we can't have two Matts.... That'd just be scary. Redbone and Angeluv said hey, but that was about it. Regardless, it was good to see them. Dalton and Mike were there, about the same as always. Jay-Jay was there for once. That was kinda interesting. It was good to hang with him for once. He looked like he was enjoying himself, even if he didn't move from one spot for several hours. I saw Mallorie again, too. She actually remembered me. That was cool. She wanted to share a New Year's kiss, but I declined. She was sad, but understood why. Other than all of that, I made a couple of friends. I missed their names, but I can certainly recognize them. Most of them were at the last party and I'm sure they'll be at the next one.

Things are going pretty well right now. I went and ate at O'Charlehs with Ricky, Bunny, and Crystal. That was great. I had a lot of fun. I also got to see the Beetle. That's a nice car.

I'm getting tired and have to work in the morning.

I really need to post more.

Goodnight everyone.

Happy '06.

~Luv Spunky~

A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it...

2005-12-27T19:04:19Z

Christmas went well. Not sure I could have asked for more, except for a gift from New York. Other than that, things went well. Crystal and I woke up and our family was in the living room watching Ethan opening his gifts. When we walked in, he was mostly eating wrapping paper. He's so cute. It was good to see Mere, and even taking into consideration everything that happened, it was good to see Joe.

I got some great gifts actually! =) My favorites include my gifts from Crystal and Mejia. Crystal got me an engraved flask. It has such a great quote on it.... She also got me this really nice, very stylish watch. It's a Quicksilver watch. I wish I had more time to wear it. Stupid job... Mejia got me an Element belt, a Quicksilver wallet, a new hat (that I won't wear), and a Nintendo shirt. I think the belt and wallet are great. I like the shirt because it's red. I don't really do the red thing to often, but it's a good change. Mere got me a blanket and a throw. Crystal's been using them because I'm hardcore about my blanket. She said that they are nice.

I think we're going to have to take our trees down soon. What with this whole deal being over, i suppose there's no point anymore. Then again, I don't know the point in the first place of a Christmas tree. But they're fun to decorate!

I missed contacts with so many people on Christmas, and i feel pretty bad about it. It's amazing that everyone calls while I'm busy. I missed Rebecca and Crystal H.'s calls. I missed another one, too... =( I was watching the movie The Producers when they all called. *sigh* I'm sorry! I think I'm going to call Crystal and see if she wants to hang today. I haven't seen her in so long. She and Josh are still doing well. I can't wait to see Layla! She's so cute. Crystal said she's almost a year old now. That's so crazy.

I saw Carla and Jake at Waffle House after the movie on Christmas. They wouldn't even come inside. Apparently he saw me and wouldn't let her come in. I don't know what his problem is. =/ Whatever....

Man, I want to go to O Charley's. In the Burg. Maybe I'll ask Ricky and Ashley and Courtney if they want to go. That sounds like it could be fun. I really want to throw a party too. It's been so long since I've thrown one. What's it been now? 4, 5 months? Gah, too long!

I'm off to go do those things that I was supposed to do before work. So, I hope you all have a good day. Take it easy!

~Luv Spunky~

Get ready, cuz this shit's about to go down.

2005-12-16T04:17:30Z

After a long day at work, I'm totally about to go hug my Jager bottle. Watch some Aqua Teen. Hug Crystal. Ya know? The things that cheer me up! Maybe I could try to hug our little Charlie Brown Christmas Tree tonight. It's a little prickly though. =( It's still cute...

I've never really been to Dupont, but they order more pizza from Domino's than any other business I've ever seen! It's nuts! At least twice a day, someone comes in from Dupont and gets an outrageous amount of food. They are certainly some interesting characters though.

I need to go to Hattiesburg. IHOP called. They said they miss me. Crystal, too. But not as much as me. =)

I'm jealous of Cliff. Amanda (his girl) is going to Disney World with her family soon, and he gets to go too! I told them I was going with them and they said that it was okay, but I need to inform her mom of this... I'll pass.

Anywho. I think I'm going to go fix Crystal and myself some dinner and have some fun.

Take it easy pimps!

~Luv Spunk~

Today, tears fall in a library.

2005-12-12T21:34:53Z

My past slips. I hold on. It's like holding the hand of a maniacal friend when he wants to commit murder. I say no, but he insists. We go down. The both of us. But not this time....

I've always feared that I would be the kind of person to hold on to my past until I died. I realize now that I can't do that. Years ago.... maybe. But, I'm fixing things now.

I'm breaking ties. I'm sure it started with Kat. I told her that I didn't care if I spoke to her or not ever again.... and we haven't. Apparently she has asked about me and she found out that I don't care about her anymore.

I'm closing doors and locking people out. For good.

I'll find my real friends. They'll step up. Hugs will be had. Embracing of change will occur. And this time, I don't care if I end up happy. I just want the people I care about to be happy, which coincidently turns out to be a good bit of folk.

...Damn

I'm getting scared of a lot of things.

Lovely. Things finally start getting better and straighten out... and now I freak out. I'm starting to lose it again. <=(

I wish someone were here. Right here. Right now. With me.

"And she hugged me. And I closed my eyes because I wanted to know nothing but her arms. And she kissed my cheek and whispered so nobody could hear......... 'I love you'"

What do I say?

2005-12-09T07:37:10Z

Today... I'm speechless.

One of the worst days ever, only to end divinely from the words of a stranger.

Goodnight.

And now I can't stop thinking about you.

2005-11-28T00:06:38Z

So, I go back to work Tuesday. I'm looking forward to it, but at the same time, I'm dreading it. Work is fun and the people I work with are great people who are so nice... it's just an interesting time in my life i suppose. Wednesday, I have to go do something that will affect my life. Hopefully it will work out the way it is supposed to.... if all goes as planned, my life won't be ruined.

I feel as though something great has come into my life... Now, it just needs to hurry up. =)

~Luv Spunky~

Whenever you invade my dreams, I always awaken with a smile...

2005-11-17T22:48:02Z

So much has happened lately. Nothing much worth of interest though. I suppose if I had the internet I would talk about every little thing, every day. But I'd rather not waste everyone's time with insignificant ramblings all too often. Every now and then works for me.

Well, hm. What's been going on? I've been trying to contact several of my friends lately but a lot of people are gone. =(

Crystal and I are still living together. We're having fun.

My sister and my brother in law split up. It's kinda bad actually. She's kicking him out of the house and she's keeping Ethan. So, for a while it's going to be Crystal, Mejia, Ethan, and me. I suppose it works.

I've been avoiding drinking for a while, but I've been craving Jagermeister lately... and Antifreeze. I think I need to call Kilo and go party with Cody in Hattiesburg.

Well kiddos... I'm about to head home. Maybe I can talk Crystal into watching The Devil's Rejects tonight. We watched House of 1000 Corpses and Run Ronnie Run yesterday. They were great.

Later!

~Luv Spunky~

We live.

2005-09-06T22:29:38Z

Hello everyone.

I am alive. And I'm glad to say that most of you are as well. I miss you all so much.

Everyone is talking about how uninhabitable the south has become. I feel as though we all need to hold together and feel the unity and love our communities have to offer. There are many places and people that are doing unspeakable things... but for the most part, this storm is bringing out the best of people and it is showing us how to appreciate the simpler things in life and not take things for granted.

I am about to head to the bay.

<3

Call me if you need me. I'm staying at my grandma's house. 601-798-4415. Call me. If i'm not here, PLEASE leave a message.

I'll be back on soon.

~Luv Spunky~